It's Sunday morning, and we seem to have started a tradition so far of bluberry pancakes for breakfast and listening to worship music at the table. Of course, this means holding him in my arms while I eat, but he's usually pretty calm when the music is playing so it's not too difficult to multi-task. The song "Beautiful Things" (originally by Gungor but this was a different version) came on and I started singing with it as I rocked Gideon back and forth in my arms. This song is particularly special to me because God really took a season of ashes and brought beauty to my life. This song ministered to my heart during that time, and I've always loved it. My husband and I also used it during our sand ceremony at our wedding. So special. The chorus goes, "you make beautiful things. You make beautiful things out of dust. You make beautiful things. You make beautiful things out of us." As I was singing this to Gideon, he locked his eyes with mine and got the biggest grin. He kept smiling and looking straight at me throughout the song. I just looked at him singing the chorus and was thinking how God truly makes beautiful things out of nothing. He created this beautiful, tiny human out of basically nothing. Yes I know, essentially he came from a sperm and an egg, but in the beginning it began with just the dust of the ground. And both of those things are a deep mystery to me. I'm still blown away that life grew inside me for nine months, and now it's here in my arms. So amazing. I just looked at my little guy knowing he is one of those beautiful things I'm singing about, and he just smiled up at me like he was sharing that moment with me, knowing how awesome the Lord is. It's time like this I just want to stop time and stay in the moment, holding on so it doesn't slip away. Oh, If I could just be still and rest in the love I felt as I stared into my sons eyes and saw the beauty of the Lord.
"Thank you, Jesus, for your beauty. Thank you for creating beautiful things out of nothing. Thank you for precious life. Thank you for moments like this. You are amazing and your ways are a beautiful mystery."
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